Normalcy

It's not love.
It's normalcy.
That's what has faded away.
Finally, right?

The breath that I've been breathing was timid-
I had one foot in and one foot out.
This world, that world.
Best of both.

Little by little I leaned further and further,
To that one.
Less inclined to stay in the other.
I started losing who I was, torn between
What I knew to be true-

And what was told to me was.

I kept drifting from that one to the other,
Not finding a balance between them.
Normalcy-

I never wanted it, yet it was a comfort.
It's gone.
I understand that.
No going back-
There never was.

Free, finally...
Free.

Are you happy?
Bittersweet, is this reality-
Never Alone and yet in that...
I will always be.
Distant, far, gone,
Secluded.