Selfishness

Did the world stop
When the silence fell?
Did it listen to the voice of hell?
When it rumbled loud, strong and fearsome- was it really there?
It held on to the rage.
Wouldn't let the spirit speak.
Held on to the need
To rope it down by a leash.

Only it was right. Only its mind it hears. Nothing else matters.

Instill the tears.

Good Is Real

I'm wondering why I'm here again.
Why defend the good when all it does is lead to nothing.
Why do I hold my view my hope so high. So much.

It gains nothing. My mind is ignored.

Ignorant is what I'm considered.
Naive
Foolish and maybe even illiterate.

Still it stays, my thoughts.
My views. Ridiculed and hidden rather have the plain lies.

Won't look past the superficial.
The part that consumes the minds.
Leaves nothing but the bad. Holds on to it, spreads it like a disease. Infecting all it pleases.

Yeah, my view is hopeful-
Bright.

But apparently that isn't right.

Silence of Falls

In a crossroads of silence,
this seems to be the normal.

All is still.
Waiting, for the fall.

Will it happen?
Or has it already and the moment already passed?

Truth or lies?

Real? Or Not?

Distraught, confused-
Dread.

Of meanings, and words
So hollow like whispers.

History repeating?
Is it?
No, it can't be!

Never.

The purest of love.
Save all, salvation.
So little this seems,
So trivial in means.

Yet, still.
Unclear, wishing for the Way,
Needing the Way.

Walking the Way.

Trying to hold on,
Seems its moving on.
Further,
Faster
Farther still.

Silence,
Silence it kills.

A Call in the Storm

The wind is howling,
I stand in silence.
Ice is growing, deep within.
The cold is freezing my skin.
I've tried so hard to hold it in, but the wind is howling...
I must not give in.
Must stand my ground before the storm's eye.
Just another trial I've tried to deny.
Running does nothing, crying does less
Heavenly Father -
Hold me fast, for I do not know how long this storm will last.
I need your guidance, love and wisdom to help me be used for your Kingdom.
I don't want to fall down from your path, but I'm weak, fragile and lost without your hand.
Help me to be all that I am, by taking my soul in your hands.

080014

The walls are getting thicker,
the fog is rolling in.
The way is becoming harder to feel, to know.
Is it?
Is it not?
So many things unknown, unseen-
Trust in You
You brought this path, and I took this oath that I
Would always do as you wished.
Here I am, wondering, fearing that i strayed off what you wanted and have become a lost beacon in the dark.
Standing in slow motion.

5 liner

When the moment comes,It goes just as fast with little left to ask.
A call in the void-
Whispers long forgotten...
But still, they are.

Walls Unmoving

Travel to futures, learn new things.
Tell me how without the cha-ching.
Wanting to be.
Wanting to see, what there is no longer applies to me.

I know what I want, where I want to go.
The path to it I'm afraid,
Does not show.

Freezing Heart

All the things I've run from,
Always catch me in the end.
Nothing left to stand on, in this ice cavern.

At long last my heart is frozen, left open-
Far too long.

Now my soul is numbing from the warmth given out.
Not much more can be felt, not enough to pull out.
Weakening walls soon they will crumble leaving nothing left, but the icicles creating death.
To be free is not what I want.

Only for the Frost-

To thaw.

Ariel

Held in so many things.
Lost one's own sanity.

Calling to the deep-

Want to return to the waves beneath.
No longer want feet.

Just want to be free
Want to laugh and move fast, forward to life.

No, one does not want to end with a knife.

Sacred Wish

Wanting to be someone who is free,
Freedom and choice
My voice.

Living in the open,
to be who I am.

Never having to face the ridicule of man.

Always, me.

Flurry

I take a pen and put it to paper,
Hoping to make sense of it later.
I open up, I drop it all, and hold myself somewhat tall.

Once, I held to the relief.
That I would never feel any
Lover's grief.

But there is no escape from such things.
I learned it all, and relive it now.

Time is short.
Time is naught.
Hold in the chaos.
Held the way-

Want to talk, gone in all the places,
And no where else.

True to Myself

It's not about what is said.
It's all about what isn't.

I close my eyes, and hold it in.

Knowing it will only bleed out in the end.

How does one contain such a thing?

Causing misery all around, can't stop it though-
It's what I feel.

Can't fight it, I don't want to.
Take responsibility for my actions and I always will.

I need to express, I need to be-

To be heard, to share what makes me happy.

I can't hide it.
I can't deny it.
Oh, how I've tried, but it never works.

It suffocates, and stops my breathing. I can't think, and I can't keep it in.

This expression within me, this light-filled love I've felt,
I want to share it, I have to share it.

To not do so, stifles me, and thus it.

I know better, it is better to have than not to-
But to hold back...

I cannot do that.
I've done it for so long, it was a face I wore well-

It's not the same.

I'm not the same.

It must be let out,
I cannot hold it in.
I cannot hold it back.

I do not wish to,
Game or no game.

This is my heart's final say,
With holding it no longer-
I'm going to say what I want to say.

And there isn't a thing that can stop it.
Whether I want to or not.
Talk of such a feeling, will not be stopped.

Waves upon the sand

In vast seas of unknown,
Stands a figure- all alone.
Just an echo in the dark,
That is all that has been its mark.

Insanity its only cloak-
Stabs into it with no remorse.
Leaving it choking on all it cannot be
Knows it cannot be

The shore is to the sea, as the sea is to the shore-
But the sea is defined by its waves.
And the waves are unrelenting in their ways.
Reminding the figure of the sea.

She belongs unto thee.

Reason's Blade

Voices in my head,
Telling me I'm dead.

Lost amidst the empty.

Ignorance is bliss,
Longing to shut them out.

I do not know how.

These voices always say-
Every single thing to make the memories
Never fade,
To scar, and bleed freely the wounds in my soul.

For how long?
Can I hold on?
To the sanity in me, and everything I hold dearly?

When such intruders want to take it all.

Sea's Bottom

Silent whispers, of lonely hearts,
All of which have always been a part-
Of something broken.

Of something wasted on time's fluid motion.
Just here.
Cannot feel.
Cannot see.

Broken, buried deeply.
Sea.

War

I can't stand it,
Stand the war
War of nothing at my door.

There are the flags of white raised up high-
But really it's just a disguise.

To take down the army with insidious charm.
Without a plea, without any surface malicious intent.

Still I can see it,
Still I grow weary of it.
Still it lingers, twisting and suffocating,
All that of which I know.

The war of silence, smiles, and lies.

Alteration

This is new,
So it shouldn't
Have this

Effect.
No, it shouldn't not yet.

Land

All for nothing.
Nothing is more.
Green, green grass, and leaves-
Bright barked trees.

This is a world untouched.
Left in it's cool breeze,
Winter's hand brought no harsh winds to this land.

Mute

If I write it down,
Will it fade away?
This growing darkness that holds me?
Sluggish ways, broken noise.
Behind closed doors-
See no more.

Don't want to,
Can't?
Won't?

Darkness here, darkness there.
Lost in anger, once tears.
Nothing to say.

No one to say it to anyway.
Darkness
Darkness
Empty
Void

Not another string of words-
String that means the same old thing.
Nothing
Nothing all is and all should.
Nothing nothing.

Muted.

Demise

I'll come for you,
You won't see.
The red in my eyes.

Your demise.
So twisted up in your own lies.
You'll never see.

I've thrown your heart away from me.
Killing isn't my thing-
No never was.

But shards of diamond glass are starting to
Entrance me, with the idea of your lifeless body covered in them.

Red in my eyes.
Your demise,
Ignorant fool.

Good Bye, is that what you want?
Good, I'll gladly leave your selfish
Existence to rot.

Steal that light back,
Steal your life.
Beautiful demise, my dear.