Move

The day has started.

The way is set.

Time to open one's eyes...
And start ahead.

Jumbled

Empty, jar of nothingness.
"Verily thou has seen it?"

"Gravel in my eyes.
I see not a thing."
Said the woman.

Say ye will live in that world between.
I will merely stay.

God

Dare to live the good life.
Dare to see that silver lining, high above in the clouds.

Yes, you dare.
Yes, you care.
Yes, he was always there.

No, you'll never find something as rare.

As his everlasting care.

Dream

Long awaited sleep...
Beckons me beneath, its grace.

Bow before it.
"Give unto me"

...

Your Dreams.

Sweet.
Precious.
Thing.

Surface

The sky seems to fade.

Fade. Fade. Fade.
Into a brighter day.

Left to stare upon its surface,
Just the surface of its depth.

As the watching wept.
Gazing longingly at the sky's surface...

Of its continuous depth.

Slipped

What happened?

To that feeling?

The feeling called, love.

I cannot find it.
Gone. Is it.
Slipped away.

That devotion, that deep connection.
Severed, ripped, by me.

Something inside me snapped.
I cannot get it back.

No.
That feeling called "Love"

I've thrown away such a useless thing as that.
Dreams. Dreams.

That is all I have...
Dreams. Dreams.

All I need.

Down

Fake tears.
Roll, down, down, down.

My face.

A disgrace.

Vixen of empty space.
Sail, far, far, away.

Eternity

Clouds of night.
Clouds of day.

One is brightly colored and full of gay atmosphere.
One is cold, clear and surrounded by stars.

Sun.
Moon.

Sun is fire.
Moon is ice, water.

A planet of green, tan, and red.
Different shades.
Different terrains.

Flowers that bloom in the day.
Flowers that bloom in the night.
Two kinds that hold that same feeling to them.

Life.

Everything, life.

Earth.

Universe.

Heaven-

Eternity.

Insecurity

Secrecy, secrecy.
Lips shut tight.

Whispering, whispering.
Eyes following closely.

Fault is yours, fault is yours.
Take responsibility.

You must.

Must.

Learn to trust.
To lean upon another.
Seek comfort for yourself,
But not from yourself.

Stop.
Listen.

That which is broken you must mend.
Shatter your heart.
For another, let it be...

Shattered.

Reach

In my waking dream.
I reach for thee.

But so long as I sleep, never can I reach.

Thee.

Thy are too far, from my everlasting peace.
Thy will not come to me.

Never me.
Dream, dream, sleep.

My love,
That I hath never seen.

Time

Time, time...

Time is a thin line.
A thread never ending,
Unraveling forever, continuous...

Infinitive.

Like the water that flows through a river.
Sliding across the pebbles in its way, but never changing direction.
A current never ending, cycling over and over in a circle.

Repetitive. Repeating.

On.

And.

On.

It goes.

Time, time...

Is never ending.

It goes.

Goes.

On.

-This poem is dedicated to A.H aka: Ice...-

Lie

I've often told myself.
That everything I say, is a lie.

A lie in the form of truth.

How is that possible?
You ask.

Simple, making your heart believe your lie makes it a truth.
Because you've made yourself believe it is truth.

But in the end,
It's still,

Just.

A.

Lie.

Sleepless

An illusion of what is known.
A dream of a nightmare...

In a nightmare.

Tell me. is it normal?

To not want to sleep?
To stay awake, as long as one can.

Keeping your mind working consiciously,

Fearing the moment you close your eyes.
Fearing what may lay.

There.
In your dreams of dark.

Dark.

Night.

Tread

So, you want a new world to live in?...
Go ahead, reach for it.

You won't, will you?

Diagnosis- Fear.

You fear, that which you wish for so dearly.

Rush. Forward.
Take hold of it.
That drive to that world.

You can't find it.

Secretly hidden from you.
Lost in the back of your mind.

Endless time.

Drink

Drink up, drink up
These surroundings.
Hold them in your mind's eyes.

Lose your will to fly.

Breaker of angels.

Hold still, hold long.
As the temptress of evil sings her song.

So long.
So long.

My fair fair father.
Mother, brother.

Daughter of the mind's eyes.
No choice.
No life.
Die.

Sound

A haunting melody....

Hear it?

Can you hear it?
The sound of our past.

It's fading, fading...
To a memory.

A memory to be cherished,
For years to come.

We live each day with promises of new.
Forgetting the one's we've already kept.
Storing them away in the back of our minds.

Accomplished. Ours. Forever.

Always.

This memory, a link to the past. Will now rest. Here, in my heart.

That is now opened up once more...

We go through each day.
As if it's just any other, but is it really?
Should we not live in a randomized style?
Take any chance thrown at us for something new?
And interesting?

This memory, it's here. Here with me, and only me. Of you...

We say to ourselves, to not cry.
To be strong, but crying,
We forget is a strength as well.

Not forgotten, this memory. But no longer living as strongly as it had...

We cry.
Cry for loss.
Cry for gain.
Cry.

But,
But.

We always move forward
I move forward.

To new beginnings.
And slowly form the inevitable ending.

The beginning.
Beginning.

Safe

Drastic measures are taken.

Taken to hold my sanity, hold me here....
In place.

This place.

Safe.

From what?
I know not.

I never asked.
I just let them put me here, away.
All to calm their fears.

Dry their tears.
Live long years of gay lifetimes.

Forsake these unspoken words on my lips.
Scraped away, a scab...

Bleeding.

Not knowing why, never looking them in the eye.

Dropping my head to ground.
Hide. Hide.

My displeased frown.
Diseased state of obedience.

Father, why can't you see me?

My only words...
No answer.

Left in the dark.
And still they say.

You.

Are.

Safe.

Diamond

Run, run.

As far as my feet can take me.
I will never be caught, for I do not wish to be.

Run, run...

From you.
From that forbidden side of me.

Desire- poison, no longer will I fall to it.

Eyes opened.
Mouth shut.

A diamond that will stay lodged in the earth's crust.
For hands may try to uproot it, to claim it.

But still the diamond will stay, stubborn.
Hidden away.

Untarnished.

Crushed

I write for hours in my head.
Expressions written within my eyes…
For all time
About love and how much I despise it.
And I suffer under its grasps

Over
And
Over

But is it love?
Or lust?
Or simply just a very hard to get over crush?

I would like someone to tell me, so I can get away- run away.
And avoid ever turning down that road that led me here.
Led me here in my sorrow.
A sorrow that rips me in two,
With thoughts I feel mustn’t be thought.

But I succumb anyway, to these feelings.
To these thoughts,
My fingers knowing only how to express these things in words.
Words that don’t even do it justice.
Feigned smiles, of jokes and teasing s.
When really I just want to roll up in a ball and stare vacantly
At the blood under my fingernails.

From, those thoughts
Those feelings,
That never leave me.

No matter how much I chase them away.
They only get clearer, blinding me, unable to see clearly.
But it’s not tears that cause it.
It’s

Love.
Lust.
Crush.
Curse.
My downfall.

You.

Twilight

I wait.
Wait for you, where ever you are.

Who are you?

I do not know, cannot fathom an identity.

Cannot name a face, though we've met.

Day by day I wait, wait for you.
Thinking, you'll remember me, that you'll know my own identity.
But I've realized...

You cannot see me.

Held

There is a new way to space it.
A different way to hold it.
And a place long held within one's grasp that is slowly fading.

Break.

Down.

The Lies held within one's own mouth.

To never be spoken.

Ever.

Shifting

In the darkness I stood,
In a theme park long known.

Alone.

With them, you and I...
Brother.

Back to back-

An act.

Just an act.

We were searching, scavenging for a certain item.

To relieve the world of its worries...
We did not find it.

For I was throw out of it, to another place.

Beyond that place.

Sirens flashing.

Away from you.
Away from them.

Evil acts...
The justice has turned its claws upon those who have no care.

Offenders, offenders.

Haters. Disturbed.

Massacre. Massacred.

By justice.

They did what they had to, the offenders scattered.

She & I, separated.

Two sides of me.

Me. Her. Us.

Against them-

Three.

Justice saw us, we called them to save us...

We phased away...

Dream. Nightmare.

Stars

I look to the sky.

The stars shining bright...

I wonder, can I reach them some day?

Reach with my hand outstretched to the heavens above?

My mind says this cannot be so.
For my arms are not long enough, to even grab hold of such wondrous sights.
My heart says different. In the cliche way only a heart of romantic nature can believe...

It answers...

If I wish to achieve something...

I can do so.

Daybreak

I woke up today with the strangest thought.
A dream, a dream of you.
In my world without you.

Why is that?

You have not forgotten me.
Through all these years.

And I,

You, I have not forgotten either.

But, I wish to continue forward.

Onward.

You continue to follow me.
A never ending cycle of you and I...

Will we ever be free?

Will we be able to stop seeing each other's eyes?

Every time we close ours?